Having an anxiety disorder is more complicated than just worrying a lot
It’s more like being followed around by this omnipresent cloud of dread and fear determined to rain on every tiny aspect of your life. Plus other symptoms and most people woth anxiety suffer from other mental illnesses also.
Speaking of, anxiety comes with a lot of physical symptoms.
Stomach problems, dizziness, headaches, insomnia, sweatiness, muscle tension… Just to name a few.
And there is constant questioning of whether symptoms are anxiety-related or something else entirely.
We get anxious over the “normal” things like tests, big presentations, first dates, whatever. But then, we also do over stupid, small, irrational things
Did I lock the door? I know I already checked, but am I sure? What if something happens to me and no one thinks to check on me? What if the person I’m talking about my slow internet with thinks I’m an idiot? What if? WHAT IF!?
A panic attack can hit people who suffer with anxiety disorders more often than not.
One second I’m safe in my room watching Netflix, the next it’s like WHY CAN’T I BREATHE NORMALLY ANYMORE THERE IS LITERALLY NOTHING HAPPENING WHAT’S GOING ON? I’M GONNA PASS OUT?!
We even get anxious about being anxious
You feel it coming, you know it’s inevitable and it’s creeping up on you, and the anticipation of waiting for it to hit is like:
Imagine constantly hearing the boss music in a video game but never seeing the threat…that’s what creeping anxiety feels like.
We might come across as a little uptight when it comes to making solid plans.
Being able to schedule things and have a plan helps us chill, so “winging things” is just not enjoyable. Can we just decide when and where we’re going to meet?
Also, open-endedness is torture. You’re running late? OK, so do I sit here and do nothing for what could be, like, three hours?
You might think we’re prone to canceling plans thanks to anxiety, but we don’t do it lightly
In fact, it actually causes MORE stress because then you have to think of excuses and worry about disappointing your friends, and ugh. Nope. We basically have to force ourselves. This is why self care for anxiety sufferers is important! We need to do something we want and enjoy for ourselves to break up the need to not inconvenience others.
Little things add up really quickly, so sometimes, we might freak out over something that seems tiny.
So calling the doctors to book an appointment, getting the laundry done, making food for the day, messaging back a friend and then changing the bed may not seem like things to freak out about but when you have a list like this and one more thing comes along…we freak out. Also we over think said little things. Which makes us worry more. And loose sleep. And our minds basically screw us over this way.
Anxiety overall is just a way for your brain to take a natural impulse (fight or flight) and use it to screw you over. It sucks, but for many of us it’s life. Either way let me know what you think of the list, can always be added to if you make any suggestions. Until my next post, see you all online! Charlotte x